When I got home from work one night last week, I was elated at the thought that I did not have to be hovering over books and my computer screen, researching and writing. Though I love it, I also love just being home. Can you believe I couldn’t wait to scrub the floors? It was such a beautiful day out I grabbed the rake and didn’t let up for 2 ½ hours. It was so refreshing and energizing. Coming inside, I quickly scanned the house….for about the millionth time. And that was it. I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had to get that old table out of there – which meant rearranging the couches. And the desk. Well, shoot…I might as well just rearrange the whole room. But why stop there? I ended up completely switching rooms! The cool thing is, I accidentally created a beautiful space just for me to write and to worship! My hardly-ever-used room is now the one I covet to be in.
But what happened before I got to the “can’t stand it anymore” phase? There had been days, weeks, and even months that would go by when I would ponder, think, dream, plan, calculate, and envision and say, “Some day when I have time…” That day was not marked on my calendar. That day the rooms really weren’t ready for what I was about to do, but that day was the breaking point, and something had to be done. I couldn’t wait for tomorrow.
I imagine Moses felt the same way at one time. Bill Heibels relays the possible defining experience that Moses might have had that forced him into leadership. You see, Moses was watching his own people labor under difficult situations and being oppressed on a daily basis. He hurt for his people. And he got mad. Of course, after killing the abuser, he fled and hid in Midian. Not the end of the story! Forty years passed. Forty! But just when He couldn’t stand it any longer, God met Moses in the burning bush and poured out His heart to Moses. He, too, had been watching His people labor, being oppressed and living as slaves. And He had to do something.
I believe that the things that stir in the heart of God stir also in the hearts of His people. And He is waiting. And watching. And preparing. And looking for someone. And maturing them. And creating angst in their heart – a frustration, if you will – a holy discontentment. You may become frustrated with your job, with a relationship the way it is, with the Church, with society, with abuse, with no clean water, with lack, with no sense of purpose, with……..and the list goes on. You fill in the blank. One day, however, you will no longer be able to do nothing. Or say nothing. Because the heart of the Father and your own heart have become one. And He has created an avenue for you to be a voice and to make a change. The stirring in your heart will give birth to a vision. It will move you to action.
It can be exciting, and it can be scary. What will it cost you? I’ve walked with Jesus long enough to know that doing something, speaking up for justice, righting a wrong, creating healthy tension to “fix” a problem and simply obeying Him will cost you. It may cost you time, money, loss of relationships, loss of your job, and for some, loss of their own life.
You were born for greatness. You were born to make a difference. Wherever you are in the world, whatever you do day in and day out, whatever frustration or anger stirs within you because you see and hear things you wish you didn’t…there will come a time when God will stand and declare, “Enough!” And you will need to burst forth into action. I wouldn’t suggest killing the guy, like Moses did, but God will give you the strength and the wisdom to carry out His purpose.
“They cried out for help, and God heard their loud cries. He did not forget the promise he had made to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and because he knew what was happening to his people, he felt sorry for them” (Ex 2:23-25, CEV). Who around you is crying out for help? And will you allow yourself to be the instrument for God’s deliverance? I’m writing this as I wrestle with these same questions and counting the cost. In honest love and true humility, let us yield our frustration to the One powerful enough to change lives and bring redemption to our brokenness.
